alright well, high school is over. i graduate on thursday. thank goodness!!

last weekend was CLPC's senior recognition and brunch, that was cool. all 6 of us. yay.

today was CLUMC's senior recognition and luncheon. that was cool also. there were more like 20 people.

last night was the band banquet. it was pretty fun. the dancing at the end with the seniors in our circle was just so...great! not emotional, just fun. i mean most of us hang out together all the time anyways, so it was just another party. oh yeah, and yesterday i cut my hair like 8 inches, so it's pretty short now. i love it!!! i wanted it short for graduation since it's going to be outside and h-o-t. but yeah, banquet was fun. i won loudest for the 4th year in a row...sweet!!! and karissa caitlin and kevin are awesome because i got poppers instead of duct tape :)

today was the ABE senior tea, that was fun! seeing all the things we wrote that we wanted to be when we grew up were really funny. so was watching the talent show!!!!! i really liked how we were all intermingling with each other though, it didn't matter that some of us hadn't spoken since 5th grade. it was neat.

so far i've gotten like $200 in cash and about $100 in gift cards to bath and body works/borders/bed bath and beyond. i guess they're going for all B stores..ha.

i'm basically just finishing up the yearbook now, looking for a job (gah) and about to start on my scrapbook, which i am a year behind on!

so yeah, that's it for now.

ethan = home.

calculus = done forever and i'm pretty sure that the free response kicked me in the chest about 9900924804 times. death.

all i have left is nothing. except that big, colorful book.

and stupid stupid high school band.

sometimes i wonder what things would have been like if i hadn't stepped out of the relationship when i did. i think life would have been hell. overdramatic. traumatic. stressful. very stressful. i wonder if we could have made it work. i think we were always just faking it. maybe. i never really understood you. they say you can't change people; they're right. you're also not supposed to want to or try to change people. i guess that was something i always wanted to do. i only had the best intentions. i'm sure it could have been an amicable split. i guess it was, there were never any harsh words, just incessent silence. i think about you a lot, i'm not going to lie. sometimes i want to say something to you, but i know i'd just go ballistic and things would be said that i would regret later. i'm sure they'd all be true, but sometimes the truth is better left untold. i wonder if i wasted all that time with you. i'm not sure really. i needed you so bad nine months ago, and you were there for me. i think. were you? you weren't there twenty months ago. i think that was the slow demise of the relationship. or maybe it was when pretended to be him, and you betrayed me behind my back. that was at the beginning, and yet i stuck with you for so much longer. we had fun, we really did. but it was immature fun, stupid fun. i missed out on a lot with other people. i was loyal to you, were you loyal to me? i think i was a much better friend to you than you were to me. you could have had a lot more stability with me. but stability requires honesty and maturity, two things you lacked. i think it was your lack of maturity that drove me over the edge. it seemed to get worse over time. thank goodness i'm hardly there to see it anymore. i certainly don't miss it. i also don't miss the constant drama. the gossip. the center-of-attention that you always had to be. nope, i don't miss that one bit. i don't miss the way you overexaggerated everything either. that drove me crazy. i usually just let it fly, but inside it drove me over the edge. i've noticed lately that you're turning into her. how disgusting and disappointing. but that's ok, you're no longer my problem. were you ever my problem? no. i let you be. i gave in. you taught me to look out for people like you. i'll steer clear in the future. you taught me a lot about what to look for in a friend, the friends i'll avoid having. i don't know why i didn't step away sooner. better then than now, or i'd have wasted another year. this year, without you, i've had more fun than i ever did with you. no drama. no gossip. no secrets. just fun. i've closed our chapter. this marks the official end, even though it ended nearly six months ago. i'm not sure how to close this, so i'll just end it with this:

I hope you understand,
That this wasn't in my plans,
But I can't be your friend anymore.

alright well the PALS field trip was AWESOME....and we got 111 111 at UIL...so i deem thursday a good day.

friday: school was...school. BUT then that night ethan and i celebrated our 3 year a month and a day late, which was fun! we went to fuddrucker's and the astros game with stephen and jessica. it was really fun! plus there were fireworks! even though they didn't win, the balloons provided enough entertainment =P

yesterday = prom 2007 = seriously the greatest dance ever...i think...

it was SOOO much fun!!!!!! hannah and i got our nails done together (bubbles) then i got my hairrrr done, and it was all currrrly, and then i did my make up and we had pictures at my house!! it was fantastico! plus we got a new car!!!! woooooo!!!!!!!! it's sweet. i haven't actually seen it yet, other than the outside, but that's ok. it's ridiculously sweet. but yeah, pictures were really really great. we took a lot of them, including the group ones, outside, and it was really nice outside. and our grass is really green. hahaha...and the secret garden was nice too. so yeah, then we got on our huge bus and went to luigis! the food was delicious! especially the salad and dessert, i think those were my favorite parts. so yeah, dinner was fun, then the DANCE! i saw everyone i wanted to see, so that was good!!! i got my picture with martin (finally) and took pics with lots of other sweet people! ethan is awesome for taking so many pics for me =D. so yeah, the dance was awesome. ethan and i actually danced, and it was just really really fun!! then, it ended. but i had SO much fun!!!!!!

today ethan left for college station for FINALS! and then he'll be home next wednesday! for the summer! yeah! i'm stoked. elliott left today for south carolina for 6 months for navy stuff. fun fun.

well, my weekend was AMAZING.....everyone looked beautifull!!!! especially with our 923487923 different colored dresses!!!! it was awesome :)

i have had a stomach ache for almost 3 weeks now. it's really annoying, and i feel nasty 77% of the day. and it sucks. i think i might go to the doctor. but i'm still hoping it'll blow over...

taks week was amazing

sort of

today i had breakfast with a bunch of methodist children + zach's girlfriend who was super nice. my meal was amazing.

i'm exhausted. yearbook is taking over my never-existing life. ah. i love being at school til 9 PM staying in the same room that entire time...i'd rather do that than band though.

speaking of which, i skipped sexionals yesterday for the first time ever. conscience is still kicking me, but it was nice because i hate them, only because of the flutes. because i hate that stupid section. and yesterday we were with trumpets too. so basically, i was going to be ignored the entire time, or have to tune the entire time. lame. no. sorry. i have a yearbook to finish.

hmm, not too much else is going on. the other day hannah and i went to ben and jerry's for free cone day and got 2 free cones each. talk about delicous. the day before that she brought me a bag of jellybeans with NO GREENS because i hate them, because she knew i wasn't feeling good. i love my best friend.

i really miss ethan. next week is going to be amazing.

NHS field trip to the ZOOOOO, Tommy Tunes, PALS fieldtrip, FREE SPA $250 worth, Astros game/anniversary celebration 1 month and one day late/fireworks/date, PROMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!

told you it'd be amazing.